well its official.

i am officially going to kill myself if i don't see you soon.
i am so tired of not being next to you. i miss you so much
and hopefully you miss me too. i'm trying to think of the
actual point where i fell in love with you and i'm pretty
sure it was the day you went to sonic with AJ and Shane
and I being the creepy people we are, drove to ephrata
to meet you there. I remember your cute little smile you
always gave me when you were still trying to get me wrapped
around your finger. haha, im not whipped. you bring me more
joy than anyone ever has. every girl i've ever spoken with
combined can't compare to the feeling you give me when
i see your beautiful smile. I remember the first time i got you
flowers and put them on the seat of your car behind isaac's
it took you forever to go see them but seeing you smile was
well worth any wait. OR how about when we used to wake up
and i would have 1/8 of the bed and you would be sprawled
out taking up the other 7/8 with your eagle spread arms.
that pissed me off kind of.. but anyways. you are always there
for me when i need you even if i am just being a little bitch
with petty problems haha, and i am always here for you.
I remember when you dropped two containers of cherry
tomatoes on the floor in the walk in and you said "PHIL,
something happened and i can't handle it." Oh how cute
are you? Im pretty sure when you do get here it will be pretty
difficult for you not to love me especially once you see your
gift i got you. Its the dedication i had in buying this gift
that i know we will love each other forever. you're
perfect for me.
i love you.